Its been sometime...

Its been some time since the last time I had posted on here and hate to say it but I have dropped off the deep end. I've gained all the weight back and then some. I've been trying to get my diet back on track but it is extremely hard to with working these 11:30pm to 8:00am shifts. I joined a crossfit gym and I like it a lot it just has been really hard to get consistent, again because of the hours and shift I work. And before you ask, it won't be sometime until I'm off this shift probably not for another couple years. I've thought about finding a new job, it would be extremely hard to leave here for the fact I make really good money and have great benefits but I feel like it is taking a toll on me mentally and physically. I know a lot of you will say "oh just stick it out it will be fine you just have to put your time in" there are people here with 15 plus years in and will never get off night shift. Shit there are guys here who have spent their whole career here on the overnight. I'm starting think this isn't for me and feel like I'm almost stuck here its really aggravating. So much on my mind I just thought this would help but we'll see.

Let's Try This Again

Ok friends I have had enough of being a slouch and a let down to alot of you. Its time to get my ass in gear and back into dropping this weight that has been holding me down for so long. I have to fight through some tough challenges to do this mostly with work and crappy schedule I have, but I think I can do it. I was doing so well before but let injury and laziness get the best of me.

I know some of you say that I'm fine the way I am and well I can't say I'm not a happy person but knowing that being the person I am is only going to hurt me in the long run of life, well its time to change. Having a Wedding in August where two of my awesome friends are getting married to each other is a helpful push also. I just want to feel good inside and out, and well no matter how much you tell yourself your fine the way you are, you know your lying to yourself.

So reason for this post was I took the initiative and set the bike up on the trainer today a.k.a The Torture Rack and Man! I have lost it, I used to be able to hit that thing hard but today I could only get about a half an hour in on that thing, also threw in some push-ups, crunches, and planking to finish it all off. I will tell it was a good gauge to see where I'm at, and thats really behind! Even though I love riding a regular bike I know I need to join a gym I just don't where to go.

So a question for whomever reads this. What gym should I join?

I want to apologize

I am sorry everyone I know it's been a long time since I have updated and I'm sad to say I have fell off the kick for trying to drop this weight. With starting my job 6 months ago and having day work and weekends off it was easy to stick with it, but when I was put on 2nd shift 3:30-12:00am with wednesday and thursday as my days off all I wanted to do was sleep after I got home and my "weekend" just relax. I have been major slacking as of late been off the diet like an idiot. I am mad at myself for that. I was holding at 300-305lbs because of how much walking I was doing at work, my depot is pretty big and alot of walking. Since I went back into training and getting day work and weekends off again i started to gain all the weight back AHHH!!! So mad at myself.

Positive outlook is I'm back in training to move up in class at work which means more $$$$. So I am going to get my ass back in gear! I have alot to do and I know this and one of the first things i have on the agenda is get my bike sold so i can get a new one more built for me! I know it's going to cost me some money but my life is more important to me then some petty money. I mean really who isn't in debt lol.

Also my foot is still kinda bothering me but it is feeling alot better since I'm not on it as much. I know I should still get it checked out and probably will but i can't risk having to get a cast because lets face it I'm trying to lose weight and i can't miss work so no time for a cast. I know I know i need to get it checked

Again I apologize for such a long gap in updates and I will try my best again!

Love
Terry

Oh Noes!

So I decided to jump in the hot tub tonight for a little relaxation and to see if it would help any with my current foot pains that are plaguing me from getting to the gym. What happens next? I get out of the hot tub and notice that the side of my foot is swollen out and up! Ughhh this really sucks I really need to get this checked out but I'm not covered under health insurance until February!! I guess i have to tough it out a little longer until I figure out what the hell is wrong with my damn foot! This is totally throwing a wrench into my weight loss goals. I'm really hoping nothing is broken because I can't miss any work right now either.

Progress!!

Progress!!!! Ahhhh so happy it looks like keeping steady on the diet even though I haven't been able to go to the gym is doing me a world of good! Went out and played some paintball today to test out the foot and its feeling better so I'm going to hit the gym this week and see how it feels.

Checking In

Just checking in with everyone and yes I am still out of the gym right now another month and I'll be on my health insurance and I can finally get my foot checked out. It's really starting to hurt more and more and is really starting to worry me, I can't afford to be out of work nor can I afford to be out of the gym! I need to drop this weight and this is not helping what so ever.

Other than that life has been good to me, and I have been keeping on my diet.

Bad News

I'm sorry I haven't updated in a while but I've been very mad that I'm still having these bad foot pains and I don't know what they are from, so I've been staying out of the gym I don't want to possibly screw it up anymore than it already is. Only positive thing I have going is I'm staying strict to my diet so hopefully that will help me out.